I think…

I started writing on this site about 4 or 5 years ago and my reason for doing this was to get it all out there and let it go... So, here we go. I have my private posts because they are something that I can see and I can go back to so I remember…

The confusion…

I know I've been a pain. I know that something has been off with my attitude now when I see something. What the reason you wonder? Why such an aggressive approach? A month ago I was put through a really tough, a really heart braking 72 or so hours. I cried, I accepted, I cried…

I’m doing it!

So here I go. I'm going to write something...  I sit here confused... I was just asked why I brought my ipad to work. Almost like being scolded for using your own toys. Just didn't feel right.  I've had a couple unusual events happen this week. I guess I'm searching for open communication. No surprises,…

When I just can’t

Why do I come here. Why do I chose this one. When I just can't see, when I just can't understand and when I don't have the strength or the patience to do so. I'm frustrated at the ones who walk around like they own the place, spitting orders and telling others to do things…

New Years

It's that time again... Where woman say they are going to loose 10lbs, men say they are going to settle down and children just hope to stay up late so they can brag to all their friends when break is over. But what about the real world? What's something you would actually like to see…

Networking

I don't understand this concept. You get together with a bunch of other people to get them business. More people know you, the more people you'll have for refferals. There's meetings, there's events that you should attend to show your support and then there's the "homework" you have to do as well. It's like going…

We talked…

I'm hooked... but I'm happy. There's a joy you bring to my soul, a sense of happiness. Your eyes meet mine and I melt. You've saved me many times and I'll never be able to repay you but I will try by showing my appreciation and giving you a feeling you won't find anywhere else.…

Burn

There's this pain in my chest. There's this anger in my head. My eye's are constantly welling up. I hate my choice. I hate that I wanted to walk away. I hate how alone I felt but I hate myself more. I could have just shut up and been okay with what was happening. I…

Today

As I was walking out on the lot today I noticed something. And not just anything, I noticed a dead bird laying in the parking lot. I took the time to kneel down and actually see the corpse of the bird and I felt a sadness fall over me. There's a beauty to this life…

A broken heart…

Doesn't just come from a boy or girlfriend, it can come from a father. Tonight I received a call. Grow-up. What have I done for you. Don't ask for anything anymore. Ungrateful. Aggravation. The cause for every wrong move. Better hold on to your ass. You're trying to be friends. You want to stand up…